I am about to self-publish my first book. I wasn't sure whether or not to take this path and so I started with prayer. I told God what I wanted and then put it in his hands. I said I'd pursue and if it was of him, then let it be a success... otherwise take it all away.
After praying this prayer, I got to thinking about taking a leap of faith, which then lead me to the story of the Israelites and how they had to step into the Jordan River before the water would stop flowing and they could pass.
"When the soles of the feet of the priests carrying the Chest of God, Master of all the earth, touch the Jordan's water, the flow of water will be stopped—the water coming from upstream will pile up in a heap." Joshua 3:13
As clear as a bell, I heard God say, "Step into the river. I want you to step into the river and see what I can do."
Over the past two months I've gone from elated excitement to total doubt in my ability. Mr. Realism taps me on the shoulder and reminds me that I'm going to sell nothing. Who am I to think that I can be successful in this? But every time that thought sneaks into my head it is followed swiftly by, "Step into the river."
So that's what I'm going to do. This weekend I'm uploading my book. I'm stepping into the river of self-publishing and I am absolutely terrified. My stomach has been a ball of knots in the last 24 hours... but I have to do this. I have to trust God and step into the river.
I guess this is a good example of what faith is all about.